I realize I don’t really care much for being a beginner! I just want to already know how to do something, not fight my way through making things that don’t look like they did in my head or make the mistakes. Please know I am shaking my head at myself as I write this, somewhat chagrined and chuckling.
I’m sure there are people out there who revel in the beginning part, rising up to learn the new skill, mastering said skill and the moving on to a new beginning.
While working out these ‘scratches and blobs’ I try not to compare to both the images in my head that I would love to paint and those whom I admire. Such as Stephanie Pui-Mon Law who is prolific. And has been painting regularly since she was a little girl.
Comparison is the thief of joy. – Theodore Roosevelt (attributed)
With those words in my mind I showed up today. I opened a new book but didn’t want to ‘ruin’ it, dug through my paints, felt the resistance, felt the tug of doing nothing as usual but pushed through it. Especially once I discovered a pad I tore out of a kit. It has no cover, the edges are a little ragged – just right for ‘ruining’! (see the first picture below)